Starting Off

Tuesday Oct 3rd

I must be the most frustrating person in the world to live with at times. For example, there is the monthly PMS cycle. I know that I turn into the green eyed monster from who knows where at least two days out of thirty two. That and in those two days I will feast on anything that contains more than 74.4% per 100g sugar (statistics from the Allens marshmallow packet). This month is was them, 100s and 1000s biscuits – the mini ones of course, chocolate wheatens and funnily enough oranges and toast with blackcurrant jam. Anyone looking at that list would assume I’m pregnant. But I’m not. That would explain the very grumpy green eyed monster.

Three cycles of trying now, since the miscarriage – and I guess I thought that it would just happen quickly. DH thinks it’s because I’m thinking about it too much. Maybe he’s right. But seriously – my best MSN buddie got pregnant last month, first cycle off the pill – one of my students mother just announce she’s 3 months pregnant and that was a total accident – they have 6 kids already. And here I am, wanting something that I can’t have or make happens. I guess that’s why I’ve decided to start this novel/blog. I’ve always wanted to sit down and write that novel, so now is as good as any time I guess. I’ll try and keep it emotionally stable – but no promises. And after reading a novel about a person who wrote a blog and used actual names – I’m going to try and keep this as name free as possible. Actually I’ll just have to give everyone pseudo names, or something along those lines.

So, let me introduce you to the most important person in my life. DH – Dear Husband. Younger than me – something he likes to remind me of at funny moments, he comes from Holland, although he’d never call himself a dutchie. No, he prefers a Aussie ethnicity.

Thursday 5^th October

Hm, I’m sitting on the couch, my laptop atop my DH’s legs. He is lying on the couch on his stomach while watching TV. I’m kinda watching, but thought that I’d catch up on the writing.

Some proud announcement: DH got us some meat for the freezer, sorry for all those who don’t like hunting – but I’m so proud of him!! He got two deer, one for us and one for friends of ours. We dropped it off at the butchers today, and in a week we’ll get steak, spareribs, mince and some neck chops!! I’m so excited. I love having fresh meat in the freezer. We killed a couple of year old lambs the other week, so we’ve also got roast lamb legs, chops, and shanks. I’m not a huge meat eater, but I have to admit, that fresh meat, which I know hasn’t been pumped full of hormones and has been killed as humanely as possible, is just the best.

Monday October 9th

Ok, the school day is over, I've managed to create a blog account - copy all the stuff from word and still no period - so off to the pharmacy for a test!! Check in with you all tomorrow.