Trade-in Thursday

I'm quite ready to trade in this Thursday for another day. It is raining - which is fine, the weather is suiting my somber mood. Yesterday was absolutely miserable with hayfever, but today that is gone, which is one positive!

I got to school very early this morning. Set up the classroom for another year. I have a group half the size of last year, so I'm really looking forward to getting to know them all and working with them. I'm in a new room this year, so that has been exciting, getting it exactly how I want it.

Been a bit down with the TTC this month - another friend announced her pregnancy, and while I'm really happy for them, just reminded me that we're now the only youngish couple not pregnant or with young children. Kinda reminds me of being the 'not' married one ... crazy eh - guess we're destined to go through life wanting to be at exactly the same life stage as everyone else. Was searching the internet for poems about TTC and found these - hope I"m not breaking any rules by copying and pasting them - if they're your poems - thanks for sharing them on the net.




God answers so many of my little prayers,
so why not the big ones too?
I just can't understand it
Why does He do the things he decides to do?
My deepest desire lies unfullfilled
I feel so hopeless inside
I know I should be thankful
and not so full of pride.
I ask God every day
for this or that, you know, little things.
And when He answers so clearly
my heart just really sings.
But in those deep, pondering moments
When I ask for the desire of my heart,
I get no clear answer
and then my tears start,
Oh God, I want a baby
to hold and kiss and love
I know that You alone can give me
that blessing from above.
I keep waiting, waiting, waiting
and my patience grows to despair.
Oh why can't I have a baby?
For nothing else I truely care.
I know You haven't forgotten me
for better things to do
because You answer all my little prayers,
I just wish You'd fulfill my big one, too.


My Sister’s Good News

My sister is expecting again!
My mother is so thrilled.
We sat around the table, and
Her great news quickly spilled.
I looked to my dear husband,
And he looked right back at me.
No one noticed our new tension
They were all way too happy.
They asked her how she’s feeling.
She says she feels so great.
I think I feel like crying,
But that pain will have to wait.
I don’t want to take her moment.
I don’t want to ask God why.
Then, she turns and asks me blatantly,
“Why don’t you two try?”